Thursday, August 16, 2007

Lovin it..

Excuse the random title up there. I couldn't think of a title. I suddenly feel like blogging. >.<" don't know why, I just feel like blogging. Gawd this stupid Kelly Rowland song just came on. I forgot the title of this song. It's about kids who commit suicide and just threw away their dreams. Come to think of it, I was in a suicidal state when I was 13 years old. I was in my worst state. I think it was a phase every teen has to go through. We're all bound to experience that turning point at some part of our lives. You just have to choose which road you should take. Some people have made decisions they have regret, but let me tell you, I seldom regret my decisions.

Alot of people, even my mom have asked me how I manage to keep myself happy even in the worst situtations. I have thought about the answer for a very long time and the answer is to look at the brighter side of things. Sometimes I do feel like shit, but it'll last probably for like 5 minutes or 24 hours and that's as long as it gets. I have experienced sadness, anger and pain. Trust me it has taken it's toll on me and I have learned alot from my past. Some of you would just scoff and walk away, saying that you have gone through so much more. Ok..you may have, but what I have gone through is MY experience, MY past, so gimme a break here.

Now, I'm just trying to keep myself and my life on track and steer myself away from the wrong decisions. Even if I do make the wrong decision, I learn from it and hey, it's good exposure. You can't just seal yourself in your own tiny world forever. Sooner or later, you have to learn to survive in the world. Especially when you wanna take up business studies or any of the high professions, you have to learn how to survive out there. It's a dog eat dog world out there. When it comes down to the worst, the only person who can solve your problems is yourself. Noone can really understand your problems. Only you understand your own problems and that's why YOU are the best person to solve your own problems. Other people are just there to give you some help, but most of the work has to be done by you.

Right, who am I to tell you what to do right? Well you can think bout it. I have thought long and hard bout what I think and yeah, that was pretty much it. You know, I just realised~ Normally other people's blogs would just contain their daily activites and what has happened to them, but in my blog, it's like I'm writing a story of my life, it's like a real life book. Well the only difference is it's free and it's on the internet~ This blog is like my own private diary. Sometimes I kinda regret doing this whole blogging, exposing my feelings kinda thing, but whereelse can I put all my thoughts and feelings in? A diary? Nyeh~ I'm just to lazy to write.

Ouh I just heard this new song by JoJo. It's called Beautiful Girls. It's kinda like the female verion of Sean Kingston's Beatiful Girls. You should seriously listen to it. It'll give your boyfriend or boyfriend's' a little pinch in the heart *evil grin* Anyways yeah, there's this guy..I like him alot.I aint tellin you his name!!!! *kicks* I don't know, I like him, and I think he likes me back too, but, but..I don't know gah! This is so frustrating.

Oops. i g2g, just remembered,have to go to lunch with my mummy at 12.30...see yuh..will continue tonight. ciao bellos(:

&&WE'LL HAVE YOU SUICIDAL, SUICIDAL WHEN I SAY IT'S OVER!!!

~ { 8:50 PM }
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