Back and with a vengeance
Lolx im jux kidding bout the vengeance part. I'm having my exams right now so yeah im pretty stressed out. Can't go out to gadong. I miss gadong like crazy especially my usually hangout peoples. GAWD I need to get out of the house before i drive myself nuts! Im having chemistry paper 1 and english paper 2 tomorrow. Should be alright cos my chemistry's alright. I've revised anough. My bio was pure shitville just now. I'm so failing that paper, no doubt bout it whatsoevah! My mom just left for singapore so yeah im free now! without the whole hassle bout goin to tuition and the shitz~ I hate my stupid p.o.a tuition. its so boring and the time seems to go so slow whenever im there. i've been stumbling upon loads of hot guys on friendster lately lol. NOW then they all appear~ I've been getting so picky on guys lately god.cant seem to find the ones i like. the ones i like usually i cant get..the ones i dont really like, so easy to get. Now im finally realising what i like. GUYS WHO PUT UP A CHALLENGE. One thing about me that I have just realised is that I get bored easily in relationships. I need a relatonship to be challenging and surprising. not the ones that are so predictable and the guy always ends up being the girl. I need a guy who acts like he wears the pants in the whole relationship. someone who can control me. Trust me it is not easy to control me. I do what i like as i please. There was someone who could do that before but i let him slip away. *sigh* yes my friends should know who he is..lemme give u a clue..his name starts with 'N' lol.hottest guy i've been with. he ended up telling me that he had someone else and ol that shit.I tried to put up with it but in the end i just let him go. I knew that i needed to let him go as it wasnt my war to fight. Im the second one. If i was the first one then i wouldnt mind but hey being the third party in a relationship is a really cheap ass move for a girl. And i know that i aint that cheap! Hurmph, eventhough he was hot and nearly perfect, it aint worth giving up my pride and self-respect. I used to think that looks was everything, but eventhough the guy's hot, i realised that if he aint got no personality and has no friggin control ovah the whole relationship then he aint worth my time. i hate guys who get too clingy and doesnt gimme space. it really really frustrates me and i end up pushing him away.I used to think that i was afraid of love, but im not. i just havent found the right one yet. I need a lasting relationship..something that i'll b so into for the rest of my life. the fairytale come true kinda shit lol. hard to find yes i know. but seriously..after watching what happened to my parents..im like super terrified of marriage and commitment lol.People do change and there's not a doubt bout that! I'm so craving for those colourful cupcakes at chill cafe. Gawd i miss em lolx. So yummy..colourful..bt fucking expensive. Yes i know i promised to keep this blog PG but i cant help it haha. You know it's so damn amazing how some people can just annoy you so much til u feel like murdering em. gawd..lol. yes that was very very random but oh wellz.im a random person. Hahahaha..newayx this is it for now. will continue tomorrow. ciao bello&&can't for the exams to fly by.
