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Thursday, January 17, 2008
sorryyyy
Heyy! sorry that i haven't been blogging much guys. I have been real busy with loads of things~ one word..school..yes the every-grueling stage all us young people have to face before walking out into the unsuspecting world of..jobs. God..this school is putting so much pressure on me with all the tuition and shit shits~

One good thing that happened is azmi and i got back together..i had to grovel in pain just to get him back..well all the tears and sadness are worth it cos i finally found someone i truly love. How do I know? Well....you can ask all my friends about how I used to be last time about guys. I used to just treat em like dirt..cheat..cheat..AND cheat~ That was all I do and every relationship never lasted long cos I lost interest. I thought Azmi was just like any other guy..but no..he isn't. God..when we broke up i was so damn depressed. I was crying like almost every single day.

At that time, he actually went into another relationship with this other bitch..(once again..no names~keep dreaming). I tried to win his heart back and at first, he didn't wanna budge, but I still didn't give up and kept fighting and fighting for it. Crying everytime I think about him and in the end, I finally got him back and I have never been happier. Seriously peoples, I am truly, finallyyyyy happy with a relationship! I have actually found someone that I have stuck on for 8 months. Next month will be the 9th. The MAY will be A YEAR!!!

Finally something I can be proud of! First relationship that lasted this long and let's jux hope that it'll last til...well..forever~ I know it's corny and whatever and I know that things won't be smooth all the time. We do have our ups and downs you know. We're still human. I'm not gonna be like those love-blinded people and go *mocking cute voice* "Oh we're so damn happy and everything's fine and dandy and sooo perfect...ahakz"

Well if you think like that....all i have to say is.. = "YOU ARE LIVING ONE HELL OF A LIE. GROW UP KID COS NO RELATIONSHIP'S THAT PERFECT! LIVE WITH IT AND STOP DENYING IT!" No, seriously I have met people like that. Girls who claim that their boyfriends would never cheat on them. My god~ How stupid some females have become. Guys..will be guys. If you don't give em enough attention and you keep trustin em and giving them whatever they like...You'll soon end up a depressed divorcee with no money and 10 kids.

Trust me...that is sooo not pretty mayn~ You DO NOT want that. No matter how much you love someone, there's gotta be boundaries. I'm not saying that it's easy to you know, get really mad at the one you love, but you know, sometimes you gotta think of yourself and what would happen if you just let things go on that way. Now's the time to actually change things before things get serious. Show him that..eventhough you love him, he can't jux walk all over you like some dull red doormat. I have met some girls in my life before that would do anything, even hurt themselves for some boy that doesn't give a rat's ass about em. I mean, that's just plain stupid.

If a guy treats you like dirt, them leave him. You probably can't see it cos you're duh loveblinded. But the best way is to find someone whom you truly trust and tell em everything. Then ask that person to tell you the honest truth on how that guy treats you. If he/she tells you that guy's treating you like dirt, don't just believe em, but try to just wake yourself up and think in you're point of view. If you saw your friend getting treated the way that they guy's treating you right now, what would you advise her to do?

See, sometimes putting yourself into other people's shoes actually works you know. You can see things a bit better that way at times. In Azmi's case...I know him too well. He's not the kind to actually cheat on a girl. He loves me and I know it. Everyone says it. Even my bestfriends say it that's why I trust him..not fully, but atleast some trust is in the relationship. I'm so in love with him that for the very first time, I'm actually becoming very clingy. he said that he admits that it's a bit annoying, but he actually likes it.

It shows that I love him. All the protectiveness and the possessiveness are all proof that I actually love this guy. I'm so in love with him. And..some of my friends are actually happy that I'm finally sticking to one now. God...trust me when I tell you that karma's rage is not to be messed with. cos I wasn't one to believe in karma..but now I do..trust me when it bites you in the ass..it bites hardddd~~~

Newayz..im off to tuition now. Azmi's gonna be there so yeah..haha..gotz to go. If anything interesting happens again, I'll blog..but for now ciao darlings





&&I'm in love witchu..dumdumlove 157<3>

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