Boredom,heartt heartt..it jux dnt matta no mo.
I'll start off this blog with a huge lol!!! Some people can be so ego-tistical when they don't have shit. Annoys the hell outta me when someone tries to act all holy and humble around other people, but in front of me they're a whole different person. People sometimes think that they can push me around and walk on me just like a welcome door mat, but what they don't know is that I do have a limitation. NEVER PUSH ME OVER MY PATIENCE LIMIT!!!! Cos honestly you'll regret it so much. Don't think that just cos I stay quiet and patient I won't lash out every bit of my anger out on your unlucky ass.Hypocrites are like the worst people to be around. They really annoy me alot! I can't handle they're goody-goody fakeness cos in my heart I know who they really are. They try and let me *ahem* repeat TRY to change, but they can never ever change who they really are inside. It's your nature. Changing your whole attitude and putting up a fake attitude just to get people to like you is pathetic beyond comprehension. Don't get me wrong though. I'm not saying that you shouldn't hide your feelings now and then, but you should really just be yourself around people. Don't like something that you used to hate just cos alot of people like it. Just now, when I had mid-week service in school, this girl gave a speech. She said, "Nowadays the world encourages us to keep our feelings to ourselves." Very true!! It's like the world doesn't allow us to express how we really feel nowadays. We have to follow the rules and whatsoever we're told to do. Sooner or later our feelings are going to explode out of our hearts,minds and bodies! That won't be good. Cos once your feelings get cooped up for a long time, they tend to accumulate and the aftermath is never pretty. Someone always gets hurt in the end. School was alright just now. Nothing much happened. It's Jo's bday today! The whole class sang a bday song for him just now in the morning after he came into class after the assembly. He said that he was "so touched". Haha! I met up wit Azmi at tuition yesterday. He went there just cos I told him to cos I wanted to meet him up. Ugh. I was planning to get to know him better, but Jeff had to come and join in. Talk bout bad timing. I couldn't really talk to Azmi one on one for too long cos I had to get back to class.I was planning to not go into class, but I accidentally stepped out and teacher saw me! She asked me to go up to class, but I told her that I'll be up in awhile. She's really sporting, so she just let me stay down there for awhile. Azmi is really a nice guy. He actually wanted to bring me to catch the movie "Jangan Pandang Belakang" this Saturday night at the Bolkiah cinema. I'm not allowed out at night, so I couldn't go. If I could, I surely would cos I really need to move on from Aim. I'm done with empty promises made to me. Azmi's really sweet and kinda good looking. So yeah~ Who knows right? If things go well things might happen. This Saturday I might be meeting him up again. Ekam wanted to go out with me just now cos he needed to get a hair cut and he wanted to go out too. Guess he aint broke anymore. But I couldn't go out today. I got scolded by my dad on Tuesday. He was fed up with me always going out of the house. When he was screaming at me over the phone, I was thinking to myself in my head.I mean, what the hell am I supposed to do at home? He's so damn unreasonable at times. Trapping me at home won't do them any good cos I won't even study! He just doesn't get it. Now he tells me that I can only go out twice a week. I can't wait until I turn 18 then I can get my license, freedom, car and credit card. I so love the future!The day I turn 18 is the day I'm gonna get my driver's license! Then I can get out of this house whenever I want to and go wherever I wanna go. Don't tell me that they're still gonna control me after I turn 18. My mom told me last night that I'm gonna go to this really good college in Manchester after I finish my Form 5 O'levels. Part of me says YAY! , but the other part of me says.."I don't wanna leave my friends". I'll continue later cos I need to get some sleep before tuition. I'll continue later k? ciao~&&to be continued
