Saturday, March 01, 2008

Test...stress stress

Ok..I just officially fucked up my Physics and POA test just now. I thought I was safe, but noooo....my brain had to fuck up in the end. I panicked and everything just turned off. Great timing huh? *sarcasm* I was like all ready..I studied for Physics!! And for god's sake why did my brain had to fuck me upppp?!

It was like I lost track of everything I studied! Maybe it was cos I didn't wake up ealry just now in the mornin to go through everything again, but hey I studied til like what..3am? And I was planning to get up at 5am..is that even possible? I knew that if I woke up at 5am I would not even do my test right. So either way I was fucked. So my plan for tomorrow would be to go to tuition..and by 5 plus when I reach home..pull out my bio books and study study!!! I have bio and maths on monday.

Two of my worst subjects. I am sooo excited for monday...wowww.....!!! *kicks* Fucking hell..I cannot fail this test! cos if I do, my mom's gonna change my tuition and she's gonna take away my precious handphone :( MARK MY WORDS...NOONE IS EVER TAKING MY PHONE AWAY FROM ME!!!!!! NOT EVEN HER! AND I DAMN WELL MEAN WHAT I FUCKING SAY!

God I curse too much. It's a habit..but hey..that's me. Take it or leave it, I don't really care lol. Seriously I prefer friends who take me as I am..my good parts and my bad parts too. I don't like hanging around people who make me feel bad about myself. I mean why the hell would I wanna hang around people like that? A little advice for you guys out there:- Do not change for others, but for yourself. Trust me...I've been using that advice for quite some time now and it has worked wonders.

There is no point in changing yourself when you don't really want to and there isn't a damn point in changing yourself just cos someone calls you a loser or whatever. Be yourself...If a certain group of people can't accept you for who you are...ditch em. They aren't worth shit (: I've got this friend..well I'm not gonna reveal names here so I'll just use the letter 'A' to represent her.

Well..'A' was a typical innocent teen who gets cooped up at home and doesn't really know the outside world too well. Let's just say she's not really the socializing type. She loves to just stay at home and you know...lol..stay at home...~~ Typical innocent girl next door. I used to go to tuition with her some time ago. I wasn't close to her, but then I do talk to her occassionally cos we..yeah I can't deny that we didn't really share the same interests in life.

She's into books and studies...I'm into..well just not that. *cringe* In that period of time while she was in the same tuition class as me..I noticed a change in her attitude. At first I just brushed it off, but dayum she changed alot. First, the hair wasn't in a boring old ponytail no more, then came the clothing..then the group of friends. But somehow it was all soo damn fake!!!

I started to hate her..and trust me I still do, but in a way I pity her cos she changed herself into something worse than what she was before. It's like..from innocent to fucked up tacky trailer trash bitch. Drastic change huh? The thing about us humans that I actually noticed is, when you're like 100% good and you actually turn bad with or without the peer pressure, she end up being worse than the bad apples. You geddit? That's why I don't really like seeing all those silly girls who try to act like they're bad or whatnot~

Be yourself..I don't see what' so hard about it. It's better than faking to be somebody else for the rest of your life. Less effort haha. Yesterday afternoon while I was at tuition, I saw this girl who goes to my tuition too. I swear to god, she's like sooo...tacky. I'm not trying to be a bitch here, but seriouslyyyy. I mean she wouldn't have looked so bad if it wasn't for her being a try-hard (wannabe). She was smoking a ciggy when it was sooo obvious that she didn't even know how to smoke!!

The way she held her ciggy, the way she smoked...I mean dude you're supposed to inhale the smoke and not just blow it out straight away. And it took her longer than me to finish a stick! I finished 1 and a half sticks already and she wasn't even done with hers yet. It's like she craves for the attention. I think he actually thinks that smoking will get guys to notice her cos she was like leaning against the wall infront of the front entrance of TAIB Bank!!! My tuition mates and I were like laughing our ass off. One of em called her 'si paus-paus'. Don't know the meaning of that?? Ask your friends. They should know lmao.

God I'm so sleepy now..but I have to wait for the boyfie's text~ Gah...I don't think I can wait any longer...My eyes are like half-shut already. I'll just see him tomorrow and reply his text tomorrow. I'm in serious need of some major shut eye a.k.a SLEEP. Well today's our 10th monthasaryyyy...2 more months til our anniee!! AND I LOVE HIM SOO MUCHHH..MORE THAN EVER! Can't wait to see him tomorrow lol...pfft..I can never wait to see him~~~

Anyways, this is all for today. will blog again tomorrowwww..i'm off to bedd! NIGHTS READERS! ciao bello

&&te adoro dum dum..mi vida..te queiro

~ { 7:46 AM }
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