That's all I wanted..the stars and your love...
Emo title huh? Haha...I just thought of it so..what the heck, it'll be my title for this post. I'm currently listening to this band called 'This Beautiful Republic' and posting up this blog, using the laptop...The one which I haven't used in like forever..~I'm not really feeling the whole fancy lettering and bold and stuff thing I usually do to my words today. Just a simple blog about today's happenings and my thoughts. It's like 1.09am right now and I'm tired as hell so don't expect much haha.Puasa has started already and for all you guys who are puasa-ing now, you guys gotz to wake up in like about 3 hours timeeee....!!! (:Anyways, today was pretty much alright. ALOT of confessions~ Mostly from me cos I ran into alot of people and events today that reminded me of my past. For example, at the foodcourt just now. I told Azmi that I went there for sungkai with one of his friends last year..we'll call him 'M'. M and his other friend bumped into me and my ex...Hakeem (some of you should now our so-called history), and we had sungkai there while I was hiding from Azmi...yeah I know, that was what I used to be, but thank God I changed.I told Azmi and boy did he get pissed. He asked me why he didn't know about it and I told him that he should know how I was last year and trust that I won't do it again. After that episode, some guy from last time, popped up at the arcade while I was playing the drums and yeah, that ruined my whole mood cos Azmi knew him as well and asked me how I knew his friend and I told him. His friend..didn't actually know that I was with Azmi last year and kind of developed this crush on me.He invited me to his house last year for Raya and it was just a friendly thing. We didn't do anything! It was just a normal visit and he had his friends over as well while I was there so it was just plain old innocent fun. Azmi got all mental and said that he should've hit the guy when he had the chance. I have no idea why he gets so possessive and jealous at times. It's not like I liked the guy or something. The fact that I went to his alone for Raya, yeah that was wrong and I know that me going over there alone wasn't the right thing to do either. It's not like I'm gonna do it again either. Thank God Azmi cooled down after awhile and we went to Dixie Chicken for sungkai. They had this all you can eat buffet for only $9.90 and the food was fantastic!!!! There wasn't anyone there at all too cos everyone thought the food there was shit, but it actually isn't~ It kinda improved over these past few months. Compared to before, the food tastes better now. Azmi said that it was the best place he has ever been for sungkai cos it was the most quiet place. He has this thing against noisy and crowded places. He hates noise and chaos...Ironically, most of the time he causes them...not the annoying type...the scary type, when he blows a blood vessel. I've seen a fair share of these 'classic' moments, whenever we have a fight, yeah~ I just have to learn to shut up whenever he's pissed and stop fighting back, but how can I? It's my nature. I can't help but to fight back. I'm not the type of girl who just lets someone scream at me for some stupid reason and let them get away with it. I'm not the type of girl either who just lets some person say something I don't agree on without and arguement. That's usually how our fights start. A small arguement can turn into a full-fledged fight. No hitting involved ofcourse. Just a lot of things flying around the house and glass-breaking.He throws a chair, I flip the table. He throws the ashtray, I throw the friggin glass. That's how things roll. (:It doesn't mean we don't love each other thought. We do. We just have to learn how to control our temper. We both have anger issues, so yeah. It's not usually a good thing in a relationship for both the boyfriend and girlfriend to be hardheaded, but can we help it? NOPE We're made like that. Haha. Strange I know, but atleast we're not an abusive couple. We don't hit each other, unless it's just for fun like small little pinches on the cheeks or something. Sappy, yes I know, but it's all true. THANK GOD.We know a few people who have abusive relationships such as one of our friends who is actually called 'the brutal couple'. They literally kick the shit out of themselves when they get into a fight. The boyfriend headbutts her and she still gets up and fight. Love and Hate relationship...weird, but sweet at the same time. Haha. Don't aske me how so, cos I can't really explain it.God, I can't believe I have school tomorrow. I got back some of my Mock exam papers and trust me, now I know that I seriously need to step up my game. I failed most of them. So far no credits yet. I need to focus on the 5 subjects that I wanna score credit on. Like Geo, Physics, POA, English, Malay and my fallback will be either Maths or Biology. I think I can actually score a credit for Biology if I start studying more now. My tuition schedules have been all moved up the the mornings and afternoons cos of the Puasa month, so things should flow smoothly. Gives me enough time to study.As I've been told many time before by various people, 'CRY FIRST, LAUGH LATER'. Even my boyfriend told me that....Ugh..so it MUST be true~ Anyways, I'm going to bed now. 1.30am already and I have school tomorrow, so I'll blog again when I have the time ok? Til then...see you readers (: Don't forget to tag and link me. Gimme your link and I'll try to find time to link you guys. ciao belloMuch love,xoxo&&Baby, perfection defines you fully.Labels: and this is how things roll (:
