2009 n I'm BACK! (:
Look out world, its 2009. Shit, time passes by so quickly. My New Year's was not that good, not really gonna go into detail cos I'm just too tired to blog so much right now. Slept at 6 in the morning and woke up at 8. Seriously I don't know how I do it. At home, you can't wake me up for shit if I slept for 2 hours only and even if you did, I would wanna go back to bed again. Now it's completely different. Its like my body just said no to extra sleep. I have no idea how the hell it happened...My whole holiday was pretty much mediocre. Once again I won't go into detail. I realised I haven't blogged for so long and decided to blog now. There's not much I wanna blog about right now other than the fact that it is scorching hot down here. I'm sweating my brains out!I recently talked to a friend about her issues and it kinda made me raise an eyebrow and think. The situation goes like this. *real names have been replaced to protect his/her privacy*:Well , it kinda started when Nad hung with these two guys, Shaf and Addy last...two weeks I think. She told me the whole story after she hung out with them. Both these guys are kinda...well you can call them players, but I prefer the term 'romantically confused'. Both of em, I do know and have hung out with as well, so I kinda know the way they roll.
Shaf is more of the 'I'm frontin like I got game, but I actually do have feelings' type and Addy's more to the 'I really don't know what I'm looking for, so I'll just go for everything' type. Either way it just sucks. Shaf's supposedly close friends with Nad, but Addy just got to know her. Her's 'heard' about her I guess, but has never really met her before.
Well they all hung out and what she told me was Addy got a little too close to her. He started to brush up on her and tried to walk close to her and you know, those kind of corny stunts guys pull sometimes. I personally think its kinda cute in a puppydog sorta way, but anyways...~
Both of us thought it was a one time thing considering the fact that he was actually a player. It's really not hard to believe actually. But yeah, he has a girlfriend mind you. So I told her to butt out. And she actually did, til he started to text her through MSN. He then started to text her, and actually confessing to being her stalker. I know its weird, but we all make stupid comments sometimes. (:
Now he's saying that he likes her and all that. I mean its fine if he likes her, not saying that its wrong or anything cos the heard wants what the heart wants right? But seriously, its really not fair to pull someone into your drama. He has a girl, what if she finds out about his crush on Nad?
See this is where I start to think. She asked me for a solution and all I can possibly give her is to keep her distance til he calms his dog-ass down and think. Seriously, he has messed up so many relationships and I really don't know how long his so-called 'streak' will last. Everybody who reads this blog should understand what I went through in 2007 after I realised that my 'playgirl ways' were stupid.
Unfortunately for him.....karma's taking its on sweet time on his cheatin ass. The longer karma waits, the more pain it'll give you in the future. Seriously I thought he changed and kinda hoped that he would cos I don't want him going through half the shit I went through, but hey...he's an adult. He'll take the consequences.....hopefully~~
He just hasn't found the one yet I guess. That's why he's so confused. Different people deal with their confusion in different ways and that's ofcourse a known fact. So he deals with it in his own way. By wandering around and trying different types of girls, but what he doesn't know is, by doing this....you won't even know that you've found the one yet til you actually lose that person because of YOUR mistake.
See now that's the consequence to these flava-tasters. They won't know what good a companion they've got til they actually lose that person and when they do, there's gonna be only a 30% chance that they're gonna get them back and 2nd time relationships are not easy, trust me. Take it from someone who's been through it. Trust is like a precious vase. Once shattered, even though you patch or stick the pieces back together, there's still gonna be cracks and small missing pieces. It'll take a really long time to actually patch things back together again and rebuild that trust. And the relationship won't be the same anymore, but that's the price you have to pay. Its a take it or leave it situation.
But hey...he's got his own decision to make don't we all? ;) I've made mine and I'm happy with it. I do miss my old ways sometimes cos they used to be fun, but its really not worth it. To lose a potential life partner? Pfft. Never lose the good things and I'm sticking to that motto. A commited relationship aint easy, but honestly tell me, in life...what's easy? Nothing is. It may seem easy at first, but as it goes towards the climax moment, it isn't gonna be that way anymore.
At first, I used to think that going out all the time and not being commited was an easy thing to do and that it would be pure fun, but yeah, as it went towards the ending, the so-called climax moment, it turned out the wrong way. Not the way I planned it would end up like. At that moment I realised that life is not always like you planned. My parents recently talked about how us teenagers nowadays have everything planned out for us by our own folks. I thought to myself, why the hell would we wanna go through life their way when we could do it our way?
We should be able to live our life the way we want to live it. It is ours right? I mean, we all have our own rights, right? If we don't wanna do this, then we won't. They can't just plan everything ahead and not keep us in the loop then turn right around and simply tell us to just walk their route blindly. They can guide us...but there's a limitation to everything. How I wish they could just hear my thoughts sometimes, maybe then they wouldn't see me as what they see me now.
Anyways, I've said enough (: Oh btw readers, whatever blabber you see on this blog, please don't take it to heart and you don't have to follow any of this. It's really based on my opinions and my point of view. You don't have to agree with everything. Any of your opinions matter as well too so please please feel free to drop them onto the cbox.
Oh oH oH!! To all of my friends, and ex form 5 SAS seniors, pls pls pls keep in contact. God I'll miss you guys :( Some of you who are going overseas take careeee!! AND HAPPY NEW YEAR (:
ciao bello
&&2009 1 yr 8 months and counting
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P.S:Sorry for the stupid spacing at the first few paragraphs. Technical difficulties...go figure~
