Good day...with a few road bumps
Don't you just hate it when some idiot decides to just destroy your mood? Bet you guys have been there a million times. So have I~ I'm in it right now..chatting to this idiotic dwarf who won't get off my back. I'm dealing with it...~Today was ok actually. Went by the BF's house and chilled. Mom was supposed to go to Singapore just now in the evening, but being the 'person' that she is, she missed her flight. A grown 44 year old business woman missed her own flight. She's supposedly a business woman and she can miss her flight...cos she was eating her dinner. WOW. Shocked the hell outta me and yet no..not really cos she does this-ALOT. So I don't know when her next flight's gonna be and I'm hoping tomorrow cos then my dad wouldn't cancel his. I want them both to actually go so I can have atleast a bit of freedom til school starts. Gotta go call up my school tomorrow to see if they've got my acceptance letter from MD yet. Hopefully I'll get accepted. The whole day has been mostly about anger. Well...my dad's the one who didn't have a good day actually. Had to deal with 'the wife' which is never a good thing. I really don't get it. If he's in so much torture, why not just file for divorce? Make life a lil easier for him. He has to take care of alot of things. Alot of responsibilities...I feel really bad for him sometimes. Most of yall may actually question why I am the way I am towards my own mother.Well, to narrow everything down...She needs the whole world to revolve around her. She's just a difficult woman. Quite impossible to deal with her cos you can't understand the way she actually thinks. People who are close to me...you guys should know what I'm talking bout. There are loads of people like her in the world and around us. I just need to know how to deal with these kind of people and the best way is to not lose your cool and breath. If that doesn't work, I usually just avoid em. I have one bothering me online right now.Keeps going on and on about her and her stupid day. It gets to me, but then I calm myself down and think. Why spend time getting mad at someone that's pathetic enough to feed on other people's misery right? The only reason she brags to somebody is for someone envy her. Why give her what she wants? Everybody knows for a fact that she's not the love-able kind, so why be jealous? There's one thing I learnt last year from a very wise person that whenever you get mad...Use this meathod. SIT. Not sit as in sit down, but 'SIT' which stands for Sit, Inhale and Think. That's what you need to do. Simply calm your angry ass down and think. Its actually a fact that your brain goes haywire when you're in a panicky state or when you get mad. So calm down and think. It works wonders for me and hopefully it'll do you good. Anger hasn't been one of my best traits, but its change-able. I try to hold my temper down. I used to be very impulsive and pissy, which is a very immature way to deal with shit. I'm 18 now. Gotta learn how to deal with the shitty things that happen in my life. Its not like they're every going away right? Destroying things around me and screaming at people will just make my problems worse. If I destroy things, I'll get scolded when my dad hears about it, if I scream at people, it'll either start a big fight or make a fight even worse. The BF used to have anger issues too, til I screamed at him and told him to change, which is pretty ironic. God I'm so sleepy now~ I'll end my rants here. Til tomorrow. Ciao bello (:&&pump ur brakes before I crash you :)
