Monday, February 16, 2009

Tiring day~

Why the hell does life always turn its back on you when you're actually nearing that happy point of your life? Something bad just has to happen and slap you in the face. I'm abit grumpy right now, considering the fact that I haven't slept for more than 24 hours. I couldn't really sleep last night. I fell asleep for awhile last night and woke up at 1 in the morning~

Then I remembered that I was supposed to be on the phone with the BF. He was kinda asleep too, so yay...lucky me~ Things were ok and we talked and laughed and everything, but in the morning, when I finally fell asleep, my head started to mess with me. Nasty ass dreams...screwed up seriously. Realistic, but screwed up to the maximum.

I called Azmi up immediately and started bawling my eyes out cos I was...scared...*shut up* He comforted me and everything, then I don't know how the hell it happened, but then this topic came up and we had this stupid arguement. Now he's asleep cos he 'claims' that he didn't sleep the whole day, neither did I, you don't see me rolling around with a big ass migrane. I had to go grocery shopping with my grandmother in the morning!

Things didn't go too well with me today and I'm kinda hoping that tomorrow will actually boost up my mood cos I aint in the best shape to actually 'socialize' with people right now. Might actually scratch someone's face off. Not literally~

Life just doesn't actually seem to excite me anymore. Nothing interesting happens. Atleast college's gonna start soon and we'll see how that works out for me. I've felt like this before..once~ and I didn't like it. It feels as though the meaning of life just doesn't actually appeal to you anymore. I don't know why I suddenly feel this way right now, but its...the heart I guess. Maybe I need some sort of change. Something to turn me over and maybe change the way I think a little bit or give me something interesting in my life. A new hobby perhaps?

Its actually true when people say that without the bumps in life, it'll be hella boring. I actually do support that phrase right now. I have nothing to do lately and its driving me nuts. Its the same ol' routine everyday. The only interesting thing that happened was Valentine's Day and now its over. Some of my friends are going overseas to do their foundations and frankly speaking, I kinda envy them now. Atleast they get to experience something new, whereas I'm stuck here. 18 years of my life and its still the same study experience. Kinda bores me~

Hopefully this year won't be stressful. When I say a little bit of change, I do not mean extra pressure nor stress. Some of you may get what I'm talking about, some of you might not, but don't mind me. I'm just ranting my heart out so just let me (:

My grandmother actually brought me to the tailor just now to get my school uniform done and make 2 sets of baju kurung. I don't know why the sudden nice-ness, but oh well~ I aint complaining. One was purple and the other pink. Baju kurung looks nice on almost everybody. I have observed people who wear them and you can hardly spot anything wrong with it, unless it doesn't actually fit them or if the colour and pattern is horrific, but other than that....it looks great on everyone. Perfect fits.

I can't wait to see them after they're done. I feel like cleaning up my room right now. Aint got shit to do, so might as well start cleaning up my room right? Maybe sleep early tonight and do it tomorrow morning. Perhaps..perhaps.~ I just cleaned it up not too long ago actually, but knowing the clutz I am and the mess I love making when I rush....the neat-ness of it all just fades away in an instant.

Anyways, I gotta go call the BF up. So til tomorrow....ciao bello :)

&&life as it seems

~ { 7:33 AM }
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